I'm ashamed to even get on here to write. But after finally finding my blog site and realizing how long its been since I've written, I felt I owed it to myself. In the course of the MONTH that has passed I have been with my daughter to get her wedding dress, had my 46th birthday, gone a mini cruise to the Carribean and continued to pray and seek God for a church for Tom. Today was a difficult day, I must be PMS'ing! I have felt like all day that I have been depressed and down. I think it hit me when we raced in from church and Tom had to turn right around and changed clothes to head to his job at the airport renting cars! Todays sermon was on jeremiah 29:11--our theme verse--that GOD KNOWS THE PLANS...plans for good etc. etc. It was a reminder that God really really knows what is going on in our life, but in the same turn as I saw him leave for a job that he does for no other reason than to put food on the table, i again don't understand. I sat on the bed this afternoon and just cried because I was so distraught as to our same ole question of WHY??? I felt compelled to pick up my Bible at which time I opened it straight up to Isaiah 40:--and read...the reminder that God KNOWS what is going on and that those who wait on the Lord she have the strength renewed. I have to now and believe that even after 2 years that God IS in control and that he knows what our future holds and that he is control of all of it! I pray that we will continue to trust him and believe that God will meet our needs...ANOTHER Christmas is approaching...