I know that you know this already, God, but it nearly sends me over the edge when I call home and I hear in response to "what are you doing?"..."Nothing, just watching TV right now". Do you know how badly I'd like to throw it in the trash? Yes, of course you know. I don't know what I'd like him to be doing, but I just think that if it were ME at home that I'd find something to do...Mop, paint a wall, clean the litter box, work in the yard...SOMETHING!! I'm sure I could leave a list, but why should I treat a 47 year old 'adult?' like a teenager. No wonder my kids have no initiative to clean. I don't understand, I don't know what to do or say. This alone adds just one more reason to my repetitive request for him to have a job. At least I could justify his 'lackidazial" attitude as 'relaxing from a hard days work' or 'a break from a busy week at the office'. Why am I going through this God, I'm ready to feel like I've learned whatever we're supposed to learn. I've tried to keep my head up high and not give in to frustration. I dare not ask for patience! I know how that works, but just give me strength to handle this.