It's been a LONG few weeks with my mom here. I love her dearly, but she absolutely can send me over the edge. But today, as I watched her in her goofy way attempt to go through the airport security, I wondered just what life would be like now that she is gone. Amidst her wierdness and quirky ways, she could always be counted on to be in constant prayer for me and my family. I knew that when I was feeling irritated or down that she in her motherly instinct was breathing a prayer to God for my peace and comfort. Now, I'm here and feeling a bit alone just because I know that its back to just my husband and daughter at home. I am trying desperately to not become bitter and resentful to my husband in his 'part-time'employment stage. I realize that GOD IS IN CONTROL and that He will ultimately place us exactly where He wants us. I realize that God has already blessed us beyond any expectation by placing us in the church we are now serving--even if only part-time as Interim. HOWEVER, and that is a BIG however--for the life of me, I am becoming SO resentful when I come home from working all day and he is and has been watching TV ALL DAY. I've about had it with STAR TREK, JAMES BOND, STAR WARS, WHILE YOU WERE OUT and TRADING SPACES! You'd think that at some point, he'd feel compelled to GET UP and do SOMETHING that might potentially make him MY James Bond of a husband by being Motivated...but its NOT happening.

Father, give me peace of mind and heart to trust your provision. Help me to know and believe that you will take care of every need we have. Please help T to become motivated in some way to do SOMETHING...whether around the house or in pursuit of a part-time job. You know that I've done the 'sole provide for' role and I don't care to do it again. Give him wisdom and give me understanding.