I DO NOT UNDERSTAND
I do not understand why I continue to type in this BLOG, journal and it often repeats the same blog over and over. Perhaps that is because I am doing something wrong or because I need an extra emphasis of that Blog in my life.

I do not understand why we can continue to work at a church that loves us and that we love equally and yet they don't call us to stay there. Perhaps it is because God is trying to teach us something.

I do not understand why it is that I can be an evil mom to my child at one point and then her best friend the next. Perhaps it is because she is 17 (going on 21)

I do not understand why it is that my husband and I can walk into the same house and he continue to step over things that I think are in obvious need of being moved. Perhaps it is because it is because his mind is focused beyond the obvious.

I do not understand why the son of a friend can go to drug detox and be told that he can leave whenever he chooses - clean or not. Perhaps it is because society doesn't want the responsibility of helping him see that his need goes beyond an oxycontin bottle.

I do not understand why God would be so merciful and forgiving to me when at times I am downright unloveable and not worthy of being called His child, much less a forgiven child. Perhaps THAT is why He is God.